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| 04:03pm 02/06/2005 |
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HEY EVERYONE....its been so long, and you would think I would have lots to say but my life is boring so ya...Im in detention so that sucks but what can u do. I want school to be out so bad! Im trying to be nicer lately, i hate being a bitch...i had a wake up call when my mom told me that i take my anger out on other ppl (which is true) so im gunna try to be a nice girl from now on. no more mood swings. for sure. (this was a worthless message) |
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| 08:08pm 19/04/2005 |
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[x] I miss somebody right now.
[ ] I don’t watch much TV these days.
[ ] I love olives
[x] I love sleeping.
[ ] I own lots of books
[x] I wear glasses or contact lenses.(supposed to)
[ ] I love to play video games.
[x] I’ve tried marijuana.
[x] I’ve watched porn movies.
[ ] I have been in a threesome.
[x] I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
[x] I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
[ ] I like and respect Al Sharpton.
[ ] I curse frequently.
[x] I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
[x] I have a hobby.
[ ] I’ve been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing
[ ] I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
[ ] I’m really, really smart.
[ ] I’ve never broken someone’s bones. (sorry willy)
[x] I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
[ ]I hate the rain.
[x] I’m paranoid at times.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I need money right now!
[ ] I love Sushi.
[x] I talk really, really fast.
[x] I have fresh breath in the morning.
[x] I have semi-long hair.
[ ] I have lost money in Las Vegas.
[x] I have at least one brother and/or one sister.
[ ] I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
[x] I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
[ ] I have a twin.
[x] I have worn fake hair/fingernails/EYELASHES in the past
[ ] I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
[ ] I like the way that I look sometimes.
[x] I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
[ ] I know how to cornrow.
[x] I am usually pessimistic.
[x] I have a lot of mood swings.
[ ] I think prostitution should be legalized.
[ ] I think Britney Spears is hot.
[ ] I have a hidden talent
[x] I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
[ ] I think that I’m popular.
[x] I have kissed someone of the same sex.
[x] I enjoy talking on the phone.
[ ] I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
[x] I love to shop.
[ ] I would rather shop than eat!
[ ] I would classify myself as ghetto
[ ] I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
[ ] I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
[ ] I don’t hate anyone.
[ ] I’m a pretty good dancer.
[ ] I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
[ ] I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
[x] I have a cell phone.
[x] I watch MTV on a daily basis.
[x] I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
[ ] I love drama. (acting that is)
[ ] I have never been in a real relationship before
[x] I’ve rejected someone before.
[x] I currently have a crush on someone.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] I want to have children in the future
[x] I have changed a diaper before.
[ ] I’ve called the cops on a friend before
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
[ ] I’m not allergic to anything
[x] I have a lot to learn.
[ ] I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
[ ] I plan on seeing Ice Cube’s newest "Friday" movie.
[ ] I am very shy around the opposite sex.
[x] I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I have at least 5 away messages saved.
[x] I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
[ ] I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past
[ ] I own the "South Park" movie.
[x] I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal
[ ] When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
[ ] One of those neighbors was the same sex.
[x] I enjoy some country music.
[x] I would die for my best friend
[ ] I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
[ ] I watch soap operas whenever I can
[ ] I’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
[ ] I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
[ ] I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story"
[x] Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
[x] I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
[x] I have dated a close friend’s ex....(sadly)
[x] I have cut my self before.
[x] I am happy at this moment.
[ ] I have killed at least one hobo.
[x] I am doing this wearing no socks. |
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| 11:51am 11/04/2005 |
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mood:  chipper
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I got back from France on Friday and it was such a blast! It's hard to explain what it's like until you have actually experienced it. We got stuck in the airport in Amsterdam so that was quite funny. I can't wait until Blake comes up. Its like 40 some days and I can hardly take it. |
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| FRANCE!!!!! |
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| 12:38pm 24/03/2005 |
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mood:  anxious
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Im soooo incredibly excited for Spring Break. In about 5 days Ill be in FRANCE!!! I can't wait. Its so hard to concentrate in school, Im getting way too anxious. The only thing im scared of is the 8 hour plane ride:( its gunna suck A LOT! I bet I will get really sick or our plane will crash because thats my luck. |
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| 12:11pm 11/03/2005 |
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I hate it when people say, "when someone gives you lemons make lemonade." To be quite honest if someone gave me a lemon I would probably throw it back at them, no matter what kind of person they were. And its only because of one thing. I CANT DRINK POP, so you have no idea how much lemonade ive consumed these past 30 days or whatever, since Lent started. Im sick of lemonade and fruit punch. I can't wait until I wake up on Easter Morning and run to my fridge and drink my 2 Liter of Mountain Dew I placed there the night before to prepare. I know I'm crazy but you have no idea until you have actually tried going without pop. |
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| 12:53pm 24/02/2005 |
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mood:  indescribable
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[Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket never let it fade away] I wish I knew what this meant. Its kind of bugging me since I have this song stuck in my head and I dont even know what Im singing about. I need help. I think it might mean like once you have something special dont let go of it but im not sure. Im bad at analyzing stuff. I think I have some disease where I cant do my homework. It may just be laziness but what if its more. Its hard to explain what happens. I have enough time to do my stuff its just that I find myself struggling to get responsible. Im gunna do so bad at college...AHHHHH.. |
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| 12:44pm 23/02/2005 |
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mood:  I think I know what this means
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Im Confused. Im sure everyone has realized that about me except ME!....ahh Im not sure what to do. I forgive people to easy I think. I need to take back what I said about Blake in the last message. I dont hate him, hate is a very very strong word that should be reserved for a few select lucky people. I was just really really upset. REALLY. Don't listen to me when Im mad or you will get mixed messages. |
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| 01:38pm 19/02/2005 |
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mood:  pissed off music: Switchfoot "Let that be enough:
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Today is going to be stupid. Im sick and I have to go to my Uncle Denny's wedding. I guess I will get to see all my cousins so that is okay. But no one wants my Uncle to get married except for my Grandma. So I dont know how it's going to go. And its at Victories Hotel. Who really gets married there?...OH and i hate hate hate hate HYPOCRITS. Like Blake. Im frustrated. |
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| I SAW HIM TOO ALYSSA |
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| 07:14am 15/02/2005 |
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mood: im grateful i didnt get raped music: Maggie May by Rod Stewart
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Along with Alyssa, I saw the scary mustache and mullet guy on the news tonight that use to come into the Bob-in a lot. He use to talk to me in a weird way and look at me in this unusual way. WELL come to find out, he might get life in prison because he raped like 2 girls and molested a lot more....SOOOOOOO SCARY! |
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| 12:02pm 10/02/2005 |
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mood: anxious
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I LOVE THESE LYRICS...WAHOO
"Walk Away"
Oh no- here comes that sun again.
And (that) means another day without you my friend.
And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself.
And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away.
With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one?
But you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away and head for the door.
We've tried the goodbye so many days.
We walk in the same direction so that we could never stray.
They say if you love somebody than you have got to set them free,
but I would rather be locked to you than live in this pain and misery.
They say time will make all this go away,
but it's time that has taken my tomorrows and turned them into yesterdays.
And once again that rising sun is droppin' on down
And once again, you my friend, are nowhere to be found.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes, sometimes you just have to walk away, walk away and head for the door.
You just walk away - walk away - walk away.
You just walk away, walk on, turn and head for the door.
I miss blake. |
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| 01:44pm 07/02/2005 |
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mood: blah music: Mrs. Starkey talking
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Today my sister "accidently" left her shoes in my car so I had to take them to her at lunch. I tried to sit with her at lunch but her friends didn't like me...oh well lol...my weekend was pretty good, i had my own "anti-snowcoming"-Jessica Darling from the book Second Helpings, or as my friend Kim says"SnowBall"...i worked on friday night and then on saturday i went to traverse City with my mom and my sister and my sisters friend. i got a new bathing suit...wahooo...and an outfit for my uncles wedding..yuck. My dad has to wear a pink tie...that will be funny. On sunday I went to my friend Ryan's house to watch the Super Bowl. It was boring. |
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| 12:45pm 03/02/2005 |
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mood:  content
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I'm getting so excited to go to France. I dont think I can even wait 50 some days. I recieved my Passport in the mail a week ago, now it may sound dull, but it's a very exciting thing!...The next thing on my "to do" list for the trip is to get my outfit for going clubbing:). My life is soooo boring right now but there is so much to look forward to in the future. Like Summer, France, BLAKE! wahoo I can't wait. |
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| 11:56am 02/02/2005 |
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I wish there was one single person i could talk to when I'm upset. Im forced to vent to my mom a lot of times because she is the only one that truly cares and will listen to me. I feel alone a lot of times. Snowcoming is this weekend and i have no one to go with. People have said that I could go with them but I would awkward most of the time. I'm not sure what to do. And then people get mad at me for being too negative. Well how the hell am i suppose to be a positive person when I have no one to vent my negative issues with? |
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| 12:13pm 01/02/2005 |
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mood:  grumpy
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I hate school. Probably more then I hate anything else pretty much. I stayed home "sick" yesterday just for something new. My day consisted of sleeping until 11:30, watching the end of Montel Williams, and then watching Maury. Then I took a nap. This was a bad idea because last night i didnt get to sleep until 1 am. Im exhausted. I took this medicine to try to help me go to sleep, it was called um something GM. Does anyone know what the GM stands for? Maybe it stands for Grumpy Megan because thats how I feel right now. |
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| 11:38am 24/01/2005 |
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mood: bitchy music: Listening to Ms.Corcoran talk
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Screw my friends...not literally though. Obviously, because im a girl and girls can not screw other girls without um...nevermind. And i dont mean all my friends, if your reading this, I'm still on good terms with you as of now. I wish I could move to Georgia right now. |
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| 02:16pm 22/01/2005 |
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mood: bored music: Dear God by Jars of Clay
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Why does it seem like everyone calls me all at one time to hang out, and then when i have nothing to do no one answers their phone. GRRRRRRRRR...oh well, my mom is kind of pissed at me cuz she asked me to go to the movies with her and i said i didnt feel like going to the movies and now i might go with someone else. I think im a bad daughter or something but oh well. I miss my boyfriend lots...sorry im a random person lol. I like to stay busy so i wont think about how much time is left before i see him...3 months!!!! Its wayyyy too long. |
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| 11:29pm 21/01/2005 |
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mood:  tired music: Collide by Howie Day
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I learned its very sad when someone leaves without saying goodbye. My friend danny is the asshole who did this to me jk lol....no but he left for washington for awhile and i didnt even get to say goodbye to him really..and it just kinda sucks. We were just becoming good friends. This kind of opened my eye to a lot of things though. I realized you have to spend time with the people u enjoy hanging out with because you never know what will happen. It seems like there has been a lot going on with my life this year. Im losing my "goody goody" title from everyone and its kind of pissing me off. even teachers are acting different towards me this year. I suddenly have an attitude, at least thats what they say. It seems like im always trying to please everyone else, that i never really have time to do what i would really wanna do. And when i do spend time alone with myself i get annoyed with myself..if that makes sense. I can never not think about anything. I always have to think about what i did wrong or how a normal person would handle a situation. Like now for example ..haha |
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| 03:36pm 20/01/2005 |
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mood:  bouncy music: Kanye West "we dont care"
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Today was a good day, different then the usual. Hanging out with different people is really helping me get through the LOOOOOONNNNNNNNNGGGG school year. I'm not saying my friends are bad or anything, its just sometimes you need a slice of lemon in your ice tea (i just made it up i think) Last night i was kind of in a poetic moment and i decided to make up some good ways to show someone how I care
I love you like a lawn mower loves grass.-This was one of them. If you wanna use it please quote me on that..thanks. Ha! Only one day left of exams thank god!...i guess exams are good sometimes tho cuz we get half days and stuff so thats ok. |
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